The Purpose of This Blog

On Sunday, April 9, 2017, our twin boys, Ezra Lee and Leo Allen, died. They were born stillborn, just a day shy of 21 weeks. Any stillbirth is tragic. Yet, this loss was particularly painful, because this was supposed to be our double rainbow, the much awaited and longed for babies after we had already endured four early miscarriages within two years. Now, we are simply trying to put one foot in front of the other.

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“A Father’s Sacrifice”

“A sermon from a grieving father on Father’s Day”

On this Father’s Day, Patrick dares to face one of the most terrifying stories of the Bible: the attempted sacrifice of Abraham’s son Isaac.

This marks Patrick’s first Father’s Day since the stillbirth of our sons. And as a grieving father, in this sermon, Patrick peers through the eyes of another father who must face the prospect of losing his son.

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Going Off-Script

Today we go off-script. How do we answer seemingly simple questions that have impossible answers? Questions like,

How have you been?

or worse…

How many children do you have?

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Survival Songs

Music can touch depths of our soul where nothing else can quite reach. Music can capture the words that our spirits long to say but cannot always find.

These are my survival songs.

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How to save your life in a hospital

After coming so close to losing my own life, I have been on a mission to keep others from experiencing the same fate. Here are some tips – some found through research and others inspired by my own experiences – for how to save your life in a hospital. I hope that you may never need it, but if you ever do, may these tidbits help you survive. 

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