On Sunday, April 9, 2017, our twin boys, Ezra Lee and Leo Allen, died. They were born stillborn, just a day shy of 21 weeks. Any stillbirth is tragic. Yet, this loss was particularly painful, because this was supposed to be our double rainbow, the much awaited and longed for babies after we had already endured four early miscarriages within two years. Now, we are simply trying to put one foot in front of the other.Read More The Purpose of This Blog
Just before midnight on Sunday, April 9, 2017, our two sons, Ezra Lee and Leo Allen, died. Yet, their lives saved my own life. This is the heroic story of their birth.Read More Our Stillbirth Story
After the loss of our sons, Patrick and I have been overwhelmed by all of the love and the support that we have received from others. Through this care that we have received, Patrick and I have learned some invaluable lessons on how to best support others as they experience the overwhelming and all-consuming power of grief.Read More Practical Tips for Supporting Someone through Grief
2 years, 2 months, and 22 days ago – that was the day that everything changed when I first found out that I was pregnant. And yet, 2 years, 2 months, and 22 days later, so much is still the same…Read More 2 years, 2 months, and 22 days
“A sermon from a grieving father on Father’s Day”
On this Father’s Day, Patrick dares to face one of the most terrifying stories of the Bible: the attempted sacrifice of Abraham’s son Isaac.
This marks Patrick’s first Father’s Day since the stillbirth of our sons. And as a grieving father, in this sermon, Patrick peers through the eyes of another father who must face the prospect of losing his son.Read More “A Father’s Sacrifice”
Today we go off-script. How do we answer seemingly simple questions that have impossible answers? Questions like,
How have you been?
How many children do you have?Read More Going Off-Script
Music can touch depths of our soul where nothing else can quite reach. Music can capture the words that our spirits long to say but cannot always find.
These are my survival songs.Read More Survival Songs
After coming so close to losing my own life, I have been on a mission to keep others from experiencing the same fate. Here are some tips – some found through research and others inspired by my own experiences – for how to save your life in a hospital. I hope that you may never need it, but if you ever do, may these tidbits help you survive.Read More How to save your life in a hospital
Ever since our sons Ezra and Leo died, We have experienced an acute awareness of others’ pain. I suppose you could say that we “hear” the world differently. Hear the voices of prophets with us in Patrick’s sermon that he preached for Pentecost.Read More “Prophets unheard” – A Sermon for Pentecost